Posted: December 11, 2004 in Uncategorized

So this week, I’ve probably read the most depressing xanga entries….coming from all of my friends. I read them all….and I just thought “Oh man….what’s going on?” Like seriously….why is everyone having such horrible weeks? I just wanna give y’all big ol’ hugs!!

People are getting discouraged, made fun of, losing their jobs, failing tests, feeling lost, being ridiculed….HURTING….and for a long time, I couldn’t understand WHY….well…I don’t know why….but here’s something to consider…..

I’ve had my fair share of problems in my life. I grew up in a home where my father did drugs….while i was at home and my mother wasn’t….people made fun of me because I was chubby….people made assumptions about me because of my race…my parents got a divorce for a reason i wish to remain undisclosed…..I still face a great deal of problems today….no one can escape the problems handed to them by life….they’re inevitable. But you know what? Problems and challenges are GOOD. I mean, yeah, they suck at the time….but one thing that has always helped me to appreciate a challenge, is the fact that they’re brought upon us for a reason….they’re meant to shape our world…and to make us stronger. I’ve always been told that it’s the way in which you REACT to a situation that determines the kind of person you are….

My sophomore year of college, I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. I had always believed in God and Jesus, but I had never fully followed the Lord. Since then, I’ve looked at life through an entirely different set of lenses. That’s not to say that with Jesus, life is perfect. In fact, it’s the more difficult path, because it’s the path less chosen: “Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life , and there are few who find it.” (Matthew 7:13). Becoming a Christian meant that I would change my approach to life….my way of thinking….it meant that I would follow the will of God….and not my own.

Problems are trials presented to us….they’re tests….from God: “…count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. ” (James 1: 2-5). MAN…that’s so amazing to me. I know…easier said than done…..i mean, gees….when you lose something extremely important, or, when someone says something horrible to you….the LAST thing you’d wanna do is be all “Man….what a joyful event!…”…BUT….what if you could?

If you know me personally, you know the type of personality I have. I love people (hey…i love YOU! )…i like to joke, to laugh, to help people, to smile….I LOVE THOSE THINGS! And i have to attribute it all to Jesus….because He did something so incredible…so selfless…so beautiful: He died….for me….for you….all humankind. Everyday I try to live for Him with a grateful attitude because of what He did. I may not always be SUCCESSFUL in doing so, but I know He honors my effort. I’m by NO means perfect, nor do i lead a perfect, happy life (geez, we’re all human here!). I have bum days, where I sulk in sadness….but somehow, God uses someone, or a situation, to remind me that I’m loved by Him, and by my family and friends. All these problems seem to mean very little….because I know that when my time on earth is done, I’ll be with Jesus….

You know….that reminds me. As cliche as this sounds yo…I really try to just remember the great things that are going on in my life in the midst of all the problems. I think “Man….i’m so blessed to have a home, food..etc” Often times, people are most thankful for people….I’m thankful for my mom, and yes…even my dad. For my best friend…whom i appreciate much more than he could ever know. All of these things and more FAR exceed the depression of a situation gone wrong….because I know i still have these things by the grace of God.

Welp, this is getting long..and there’s so much more i wanna say..but essentially, I just want all of you to know something….maybe this void in your life, is a relationship with with God. Maybe you have one already, and you just need to get back on track. I dunno…..I just felt compelled to share with you what drives my life. I know that not everyone is on the same page when it comes to Christianity, and people may get offended….which is NOT my intent….but, I just wanna let you know where i’m coming from.

I hope this helps y’all….if there’s anything i can do to help, let a brotha know! I hope and pray that er’thang goes well for all of y’all during the tough times….just remember…trials are blessings!! God loves you…no matter what!

God Bless,

  1. jazstmpr67 says:

    thanks Marcus for your words of wisedom. Though it’s hard to keep the faith when you keep getting knocked from one thing to the next, I am trying to stay focused, but dang it, it’s hard. All I ask is for your prayers and good wishes.

  2. SuziQ0434 says:

    gee marcus you just had to go and do it….make me cry….but its okay….they are tears of understanding and almost happieness….not quite sure…its a mixture of everything.  Everything that you said makes so much sense….i think i have kind of lost sight of everything….what i want to do in life, what i believe in, who i am….just all of it in general.  I thank you for that entry though….i try everyday to at least pretend like its a good day, put a smile on and deal with it….ocassionally though, lately more often than not everyone seems to see through it. but i guess thats okay….but yea…i dont know if i got what i wanted to say out….it just all gets jumbled lol….but thanks for that entry weather it was meant with me in mind or not, it meant a lot….you are awesome! i hope you truly know that.
    love cynthia

  3. You’re awesome Marcus. Although I may complain every once in a while, my life has been pretty good, but I really do need a reminder every now and then to be thankful for all I have. I really do loose sight of that too often. Thanks for the inspirational entry and your comments, they do mean a lot.

  4. Anonymous says:

    amen marcus…seriously, i can relate to you on so many levels…good words man                    -xx-

  5. Anonymous says:

    your family background is just like mine

  6. Anonymous says:

    You never cease to amaze me Marcus.  Your leadership and understanding make you wise beyond your years.  Wherever you go, you will always be “that teacher” that everyone talks about their whole life as the one that inspired them.  You make everyone around you better, and make me proud to be assoiciated with you, our university, and our passion for music.  Thanks man.

  7. GoDogs says:

    marcus, u really r my hero. after the past couple weeks, iv begun to really look up to u, and not just while ur on the podium…. i will remember u for the rest of my life… thank u for everything u have done. everyone can learn from u and though im sure u r not perfect like the rest of us, u certainly r a much stronger man than most anyone iv ever met. thank u for being a great example to all of us. u make me want to have grandkids to tell stories to, about a great man i met in college with the heart of child and the wisdom of the oldest of men….
    i think i speak for everyone when i say, thank u is not enough!

  8. GAUK says:

    It’s all in the Approach

  9. Anonymous says:

    Marcus, your entry was very inspirational. You are a very down to earth person, and that is a great thing to be in this world! Thanks for being such an awesome friend. Hope your holiday season goes well!

  10. AmyShmamey says:

    Well…nothin much to say that everyone else hasn’t already said…but who knew God could get to me through this funky little thing called xanga?!?! lol I sat through two different sermons today and then got home and got a mini one from your site…lol but they are all pretty much saying the same thing to me….get with it Amy! Live how you were meant to! These challenges should be met head on….use them to your advantage…some of the best times in my life have definately been spurred by some of the worst….and your words have helped remind me of just that. lol ok you dont need a comment box sermon but basically…just like all these other people before me said that love you too….your an incredible person and an awesome example of what it looks like to get it right….someday you just might realize how much you affect all of us blessed enough to be around you….but until then, you’ll just have to take my word for it.

  11. Anonymous says:

    Marcus, I know everyone has already said everything that needs to be said…but I just want to say thank you as well.  It is awesome knowing that you are there if anyone needs to talk…and I just hope that you know that I am here to listen as well.  I am so glad that we were in band council together this year because it gave me a chance to get to know you better.  It just reaffirmed me of something that I already knew…that you are an amazing friend and person to everybody that is around you.  It sucks that you are a senior this year and you will no longer be our drum major… …but you will always be remembered as such an inspiration to all of those involved in the music program.  I can’t wait to do Fever with you…if I make it…because I know that it will be such an awesome experience.  You will have so much fun and you will, once again, touch the lives of many.  Alrighty, good luck with the rest of your finals and I will see you on Sunday!!!

  12. amen!!
    so, my aim sn is cheerupemokidmnh so let me know about the church. carol and i really need to keep going on a regular routine! or just IM to chat! good luck with finals and everything! nite!

  13. beautiful. “NO temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.” 1 Corinthians 10:13

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